2025

What an emotionally challenging year it has been. I had to build a foundation almost from scratch—something that barely existed. It was scattered, weak, shapeless, and groundless. The roots were there, but they were tangled. After so many years of relying on unsustainable habits to replace my emotional security, I was asked to change. In other words, I was being asked to declutter, to work the land, to do shadow work, and to address unresolved inner child wounds. I had to start building something solid and sustainable, laying brick by brick to construct a new house for myself from within. It meant patiently feeling all the uncomfortable emotions, facing hard truths, working on somatic healing, and relying on my own strength. I had to become my own best support because no one else could do this specific job for me.

Solitude became the centerline through which I moved. Though I was traveling and meeting new people constantly, the journey always led me back to myself. Each day, I found myself returning to my own space every night—taking stock, coming back to that inner voice, and immersing in the feeling of self-recognition. I began to understand my energy and psyche, noticing how shifting something within me also shifted the world around me. I embraced self-awareness on an internal level, to choose my truth and trust my vision. I spent days and nights quietly observing the subtle shifts and recognizing what Spirit was trying to show me in every place and situation I encountered. I started moving from a different place—one that felt more aligned with the path I wanted to walk and the way my being longed to express and experience itself. I learned to accept the impact of emotions as allies, offering me compassion for myself, which eventually transformed into self-love and character.

I also engaged deeply in dream work. There were times I found myself fainting from exhaustion—arriving home after martial arts, knocked out by the intensity. Singing, playing, then surrendering to the mat, feeling drained yet fulfilled. In those moments, I had vivid dreams that made me question the nature of reality—what happens when we leave this world and enter to that other one. Slowly, I recalibrated into a new version of myself, taking deep naps and sleeping extra to process the experiences I was living. My emotional, mental, and physical health became my top priority, and I tended to it no matter what.

I had to become implacable with my boundaries and learn self-control. If an authority figure had always been something I struggled with, this year I had to become one for myself. I realized that if I wasn't going to take anyone's rules, I still needed to create my own. That meant knowing my limits and setting boundaries for myself, and of course, for others, too. As life pases, I has become clearer what I want and don’t, what I needed and don’t. I naturally evolved, outgrowing people and places, and learned to trust my inner guidance. I saw how I was placed in scenarios that looked like old lifes and I knew I was passing by with the mission of embodying a different version of myself. Choosing different, being wiser and committed to move on. Self-control and discipline made the rebel within me one with a cause and direction. If I am to live by my own means and rhythm, I need to do it from a sustainable and balanced place. This becomes increasingly clear in consciousness, as I realized I don’t want to get stuck in loops or repeat the same patterns. Change from within was essential if I was to avoid being trapped in the shallow dimensions of existence.

I began to see myself entering new timelines of abundance and wealth. I've always believed that if you do the work you're meant to do on an internal level, the universe will support you. There’s a quiet communication of honesty that comes with following your inner guidance, and when you trust in this, you can feel the world’s reciprocity. It’s about trusting life—trusting that being true to yourself, even through sacrifice and letting go, will lead you to where you need to be. Love has always been a tricky part for me, this year I encountered soul connections that now make me smile in silence. Wherever we are, we're bound by memories that helped us grow, and the certainty that our encounters made us better human beings is enough for me. Honesty in my words and actions is the way I strive to move through this life. It was interesting to see how open I am to give and receive and how brave it is to still recognize the shadows that appear when a light shines in. 

 Life took me through portals, particularly around the eclipse season, urging me to shed deep aspects of myself and move on. Some of those things even came from ancestral lineages and generational cycles I had to work through. But, as the saying goes: "The only way out is through." Living the same situations, but from a new perspective, helped me move on from trauma. I reopened parts of myself that had been shut down, exploring new depths with a fresh vision and version of who I am. With courage, I let go and kept moving forward. With a presence that flirts with me and I with her, with resilience, I stood up for the building of my path, finding the destiny lines I want to paint and light up. 

What better teacher than life? What my eyes saw and my heart felt, I hold in the Akasha, always returning to the source in this mission of experiencing it all. And what remains? Creation. Always creation—ideas to bring from the ether to the tangible. Living and being. I want to keep working on my research, focusing on building long-term projects. Music, until my last breath. Writing, my forever lover and companion.

Yellow has been my ally all year. It filled my life with moments of plenitude. With each passing moment, I realized that this moment—this moment—is enough. I don’t need to go to extremes. In the simplicity of what is, I find peace and happiness. I’m finding a grounding center from where my path derives.

It helps me not get caught in the chapter and keep a thread of the whole book. I may become immersed in the story and embody the character, but now I know better this character—it has a way, a depth, and it’s in constant creation. I know I am limitless, so when I forget who I am, I return to the remembrance: I have a story to tell, a creation to be and do. And then, I can extract myself from my environment and reconnect with the ecosystem.

No doubt why life took me to Asia. It felt again, a remembrance of another not so far behind monk life of my soul. To go inward, to dive deep, meant doing the emotional work necessary to face myself—raw, vulnerable, and exposed. I chose to embrace her, to stroke her hair, to cry with her, to show up again and again, starting over not from scratch now, but from a solid, fertile ground. A beautiful garden is growing. I can honestly say I met all my dreams and goals this year, and for that, I’m blissfully grateful. But beyond that, it’s the extra magic I never planned but got to experience that ignites a smile straight from my heart. The magic in every encounter, every place, every temple. My bond with Spirit only broadens my chest, inhaling deeply and feeling beyond grateful for life and for who I am.